Expectations Hurts..

..is this love all about xpectations...koi kisi koi jaisa hai waisa kyu nai accept kar pata...why didnt nyone ever have taught anyone how to do the mind reading..i was no god who cud do it..long distance relations with assurance abt future..bt sab circumstances n situations dont let ny1 lead without suffocating the heart....it takes a lot of effort to maintain the bonding...but without patience how cud...
...arguments n debates...kisi ne sahi se politely baat karna nai sikhaya kya...why being so dominating always...it feels like evrythng is bleedng n cryng insyd wen we wer talkng..d wrds piercing so sharply..

what i never realized before..was the depth of love i hold for u...tabhi itni jaldi bhul gae he's d special sm1 in my lyf..took thngs fr grantd..bt wen i knw wot my faults are n tryng to make thngs fyn y dun ny1 cooperate thoda sa...
thr are thosands of thngs i jus hate abt u now..the way u talk to me now...the way u neglect thngs now...n most--ur attitude...
but still i knw all this is temporary...cz insyd u feel vry alone..n d frustation boils up..
u know wen frst tym i saw u..thn us k baad bhi kafi baar miley...wot made me love u is nothng of ur outsyd appearence..i loved ur inner core..n still....no matter how much u get angry on me dat flame cant be diminished..
i loved ur innocence...d way u showed ur protectiveness towards me..respected ur possessiveness...ur decency...ur enthusiasm..ur purity whch i feel is diminishing thats y i had askd u to plz maintain it...

slowly while learing the true meaning of love ..read..heard..felt..its jus abt giving n giving without expecting....wot i ws doing... dats y i nvr complaint abt expectaions nt gttng fulfilled..i ws patient dat slowly we will learn abt responsibility with tym..seems u nvr needed love...u wantd to hold it tight...its d comfort compatibility n understndng u needed..needed sm1 who's exactly same as u...
...i felt i ws d one who cud fill in d gaps of ur life..wots nt in u is in me..n wots nt in me is in u...can't all dat be bonded n made as one...jus being a bit like soft clay..a bit humble... at least in d matter of relation if not in ur life or career.. .
..bt jb bhi i try to xplain u the thngs my way..the "conversation" turns out to b as "arguments"..

..i will wait fr u fr this lifetym...cz probably in nxt birth i will gt u..mayb thn the stars turn in my favour...

...u knw jb entirely ek dusre pe depend ho jatey hain toh dun knw in sm subconsious mind humein lagney lagta hai we both knw each othr very well ..bt aesa nai hota..with tym chnges hotey rehtey hain thinkng mein....n with tym we stop puttng in d effort jus feelng hum toh jantey hi hain iss bande ko..n frm thr relations gt sore...n i feel aesa hi kuch hua tha btwn us too...thats y samajh nai pa rhe the...par tab reasons dhundhne ki koshish nai kari dat aesa kyu hua...har problm ka solution hota hai..n d solution u found is jus so incredible....bas blame karte rhe har baat ka ek dusre pe...n d day came jb we went so far away...
teri purity..u urslf felt u r losing dat..dat ws smthng cz of whch i "praised" u...bt wen u knw u r losng toh u knw d reason too na..n u can keep it maintained too..its all in ur hand...2yrs mein itna chng thodi hota hai...n wen i think..it feels shayd cz of me all dat happened...it ws me whom u loved..n thn ur heart cudnt bear wen it didnt got d love in the way it expected....n made ur softest part so hard...n hidden frm the world..
i believe..that i can make that barren land colourful again.....bt its ur trust too dats needed...
..it hurts now to see u in such ways...teri batein.... :'(
.wo energy n enthusiasm chali jaeygi aese karega toh...i care for u...
.........I CAN....jus a lil belief u cant dewll on me..?..i promise u will nvr evr have a tear in ur eye or ny pain in ur heart....
..if nt me..trust smthng called love.
..if nt my mind..plz trust my heart... :'(