..Insensitivity..or....??!!!
.......the things which use to matter so much..suddenly dun make any sense now..
we learn to laugh at things which at one time had broken our hearts to pieces..
and thats what is described as "being mature"....!!...isn't it..!?!

from the past experinces now it feels like things and perspectives had changed...
when the world talks abt emotions..love..betrayals..expectaions..hatred..trust..et al....seems deep inside my soul smiles at the innocent ignorances of the people around which i myself had left past a few miles away......n now walkng on my own "less ignorant" ways..Being ME"!!

..for after facing the less brighter sides..now it feels what really the light matters which ws taken fr granted..

..inside its a tryst with a more stronger self..!
..after facing betrayals..now fr me d surface bondings dun matter..no amount of unfaithfulnesses can now break me into pieces yet i do hold the potentials to give a tuf fight to destiny ..!!
..for now..it feels bit more clear what i actually want to become ..if even though i dun knw what really i am at present...bt chiseling the core fr d bttr and more tufer tyms..!!
..some really different things fascinate me..and one of them is Sprituality..and d second one..Exploring my deep self....wana feel those really divine expeinces what makes us wiser n humble..
wanna flow away frm the winds of the world that fans every being and brings us away frm the depths to d surface..
the world talks abt being practical to survive...bt seems terrible when ppl jus dun evn understnd what emotions are...
fr the emotions are smthng whch really pursues us to reach our goals...for anythng to achieve i blv frst is the emotion whch generates that spirit within us...practicality is jus a sub part of it...
believing myslf at tyms to b a perfect blend of both these traits----being practical..n yet not being machineized...and yup..nt an over do of any one trait..!!!!
.......whatevr the world believes..every1 has reasons n justifications to prove ones own view...bt do ny1 ever wonder taht r they really being truthful to thr own self?...do they really think that what resons n justifications they hold to make thr point true eventually shows a way of "hiding" frm d reality...
vulnerability is dangerous at present...bt more dangerous is being untrue to slf...!!

it feels pity on seeing people around who dun evn knw the basic code of conducts..acts being intelligent..n really tries to supress the views of others around...
thats what the world today is becomng...ignorant n fake.....!!!

it really ii isn't at al tuf to b humble..to b empathatic..bt ppl dun evn give a try..
and smtyms in d walk of life when being inspired smhw or smthng happens..the fakeness acts too shw up well really..!!..huh..?!...

really endangered world........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


1/4/2010
thursday
10.33pm