..Insensitivity..or....??!!!
.......the things which use to matter so much..suddenly dun make any sense now..
we learn to laugh at things which at one time had broken our hearts to pieces..
and thats what is described as "being mature"....!!...isn't it..!?!

from the past experinces now it feels like things and perspectives had changed...
when the world talks abt emotions..love..betrayals..expectaions..hatred..trust..et al....seems deep inside my soul smiles at the innocent ignorances of the people around which i myself had left past a few miles away......n now walkng on my own "less ignorant" ways..Being ME"!!

..for after facing the less brighter sides..now it feels what really the light matters which ws taken fr granted..

..inside its a tryst with a more stronger self..!
..after facing betrayals..now fr me d surface bondings dun matter..no amount of unfaithfulnesses can now break me into pieces yet i do hold the potentials to give a tuf fight to destiny ..!!
..for now..it feels bit more clear what i actually want to become ..if even though i dun knw what really i am at present...bt chiseling the core fr d bttr and more tufer tyms..!!
..some really different things fascinate me..and one of them is Sprituality..and d second one..Exploring my deep self....wana feel those really divine expeinces what makes us wiser n humble..
wanna flow away frm the winds of the world that fans every being and brings us away frm the depths to d surface..
the world talks abt being practical to survive...bt seems terrible when ppl jus dun evn understnd what emotions are...
fr the emotions are smthng whch really pursues us to reach our goals...for anythng to achieve i blv frst is the emotion whch generates that spirit within us...practicality is jus a sub part of it...
believing myslf at tyms to b a perfect blend of both these traits----being practical..n yet not being machineized...and yup..nt an over do of any one trait..!!!!
.......whatevr the world believes..every1 has reasons n justifications to prove ones own view...bt do ny1 ever wonder taht r they really being truthful to thr own self?...do they really think that what resons n justifications they hold to make thr point true eventually shows a way of "hiding" frm d reality...
vulnerability is dangerous at present...bt more dangerous is being untrue to slf...!!

it feels pity on seeing people around who dun evn knw the basic code of conducts..acts being intelligent..n really tries to supress the views of others around...
thats what the world today is becomng...ignorant n fake.....!!!

it really ii isn't at al tuf to b humble..to b empathatic..bt ppl dun evn give a try..
and smtyms in d walk of life when being inspired smhw or smthng happens..the fakeness acts too shw up well really..!!..huh..?!...

really endangered world........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


1/4/2010
thursday
10.33pm

Departures...
Once born were the dreams in my eyes,

being a baby I found the world's perfect shine
Illusions, far from reality they were,
Or I only was somewhat blind.
With the little things I lose,
A part of my heart breaks with every bad news.

Slowly I was accepting the unchangeable things in life,
With no complaints it became a rule to sigh.

The good byes, once seemed as a promise for new forthcoming ventures,
now became a fearful disdain
For everything departed from my life
With voids and gaps left me incomplete.

The departures of those carefree childhood times,
The departures of my pampering games,
Growing up with time and so does the trails of life.
The departure of the scent of roses,

The departure of the lovely smiles.

For how loud its inside I yell--''Am not fine!'',

I have learnt to camouflage to show vibrant smiles.

The departures of my ways to share,
The departures to my memories so dear,
The departures of my friends and foes,

...With the arrivals of my fake smiling semblance around

This post is from the blog of Ravinder Singh, the writer of “I too had a love story”
really touchy..showing the truth in relations nowadays—
“save ur heart..its precious”..!! ♥

Love Aaj kal
Love like life is so insecure. It comes in so passionately, but never guarantees that it will stay here forever. Probably, that’s why it is so precious.
Having authored my first novel ‘I too had a love story’ I have also become a reader; a reader of so many emails. And against my expectations, most of the times these emails turn me sad. Sadly, these emails convey me, how their writers’ lovestories ended. No, let me be honest – and let us face it as well - sadly these emails convey me, how their writers’ let their own love stories end. Not every love story need a wild truck running down a road to kill it, or a lethal disease to take someone away. Sometimes the people in love (once upon a time) walk away. It’s with this sadness that I am writing this blog.
They met, they dated, one day enjoying all those goose bumps they spoke those 3 beautiful words, and after a good amount of time one ideal Tuesday they said 3 new words ‘I am sorry’. And these 3 words ended everything between them. Most of the times it was only one between those two who wanted this break up whereas the other person so badly needed his/her love not to be ruined this way. The latter witnessed all that happening with moist eyes and the former went ahead to cherish his/her immediate dreams and later mingled with someone else. Love aajkal has become a fashion statement to fall in love with many, to date many and to do the rest of everything with many.
So, were they faking earlier when they said they love? Or, were they then not matured enough when they said they love, to later find out that this is not what they were looking for? Or maybe, they were matured enough then but later in this journey turned immature. No matter what the case was, but the common reality which I read in the final lines of these emails also convey to me that how they now cry on their foolishness, how they miss the love of their lives, how they miss to be cared by someone so special.
My only reason to write this blog is to check our actions before it’s too late. It is high time we turn mature and curb this accelerating and ugly series of ‘premarital divorce’. Let’s be cautious enough and calculate every permutation and combination of our life before we commit to someone, for you never know, it may ruin someone’s beautiful life - which is yet to blossom fully - with another so called ‘I am sorry’.
Though destiny overrules most of the things, but let’s not give up. Let us both (the one who walked away and the one who stood at that juncture for long enough) wish to get back the happiness; give it another push. Let us focus one more time on how to achieve rest of the things and still continue with the relationship. Let’s try again for that wise man, who once said – where there is a will, there is a way. The best part as I see in these sad emails is that one ray of hope which is surging again to redo things. Congratulations to those who had made/will make it. And to those good souls who still couldn’t persuade their better halves, I would say – learn to let go.
manzilein bhi uski thi raasta bhi uska tha
ek main akela tha kaafila bhi uska tha
saath saath chalne ki soch bhi uski thi
phir raasta badalne ka faisla bhi uska tha
aaj kyon main akela hoon?
dil ye sawaal karta hai
log to uske they par kya… khuda bhi uska tha?

in SearcH of..somE...>>>>MoDeration>>>>>>>>>>

..so someday today..remembering those good old times with you besides..invisibly visible ways....
those teary moments..emotions..smiles..the things i took for granted..those dominating judgements...those over protectiveness..the "feel" that i seldom find in me now...
.....really need them back..i crave for them...
..m not comfortable somewhere deep inside with what's really going with my life.."new friends"..
scared that mayb again somewhre sometime i could be left..abondened..cheated...maybe bit more harshly...
the test of destiny can come any moment again..untold..unseen..like silent thunders...

whats inside the minds of people goes i never get to know..i try.....
its just the faith on me..that coz i will nt do anythng wrong so hopefully they too should dwell faith on me..
or pity on my dead broken inside n not play the unjustified so called pranks..
m really old n tired inside..n more experienced...my inside voices i listen n TRY to follow most of the times..
n they yell at me badly to not to move on in wrong directions...but a lonely inside needs companions...
it says that you can be damn happy with your own company..bt my greedy outside says there's no life without friends..
bt dun realise they too cud go wrong..or mayb thats jus some pleaseur comfort bonding....
the bondings i need are the ones which i dont want to be in touch always but just feel happy that "oh..they are there whenever i NEED them"
i had moved on..bt not completely out of that panic mode..m scared to lose those precious moments...for the smiles they give..
i need bit of everythng..but really in MODERATION...to make the base strong..nt by pleasure..bt with bricks of trust..honesty..n support..

"...Addictions MAke Me Uncomfortable..."

"....Lives we have never lived
Hopes we have never realized
Fires we have never lit
Loves we shall never never make again

Sun in the earth sunflower
Bird in the air rain
Eye within eye
daybreak
I hear those strange whispers again...."

It Hurts....Only When i Breath..............

Hope life has been good to you
Since you've been gone
I'm doing fine now
I'v finally moved on...
Its not so bad
I'm not that sad...

I'm not surprised
Just how well I survived
I'm over the worst
And I feel so alive...
I cant complain
I'm free again...

It only hurts when I'm breathing
My heart only breaks,when its beating
My dreams only die,when I'm dreaming
So I hold back my breath--to forget...

Dont think I'm lying around
Crying at night
Theres no need to worry
I'm really alright...
I try not to look back
As a matter of fact...

And it only hurts when I'm breathing
My heart only breaks,when its beating
My dreams only die,when I'm dreaming
So I hold back my breath--to forget...

It hurts...only when I breath................



<<(wishng ya'..a very happy birthday...hope things go amazng ur side..God Bless)...Missing ya'..a lott today....this day's haunting me....... :'(
hoping my end within the dark night of 21november celebrations......
cudn't really wait for 21 dec 2012 fr thngs to end.....

I love u.....

The heart that dies away...
:'(


When
you were in buoyant spirits,
you smile even at strangers,
you dance in the middle of a road,
you sing in the middle of the crowd,
you know,
there's this heart pounding in excitement for you.

When
your fortitude crumbles,
your faith lost,
your confidence defeated,
your heart shattered,
you know,
there's this heart that still beats for your every existence.

this heart,
distant yet you cant deny the closeness.
feel the pain when you are in pain.
feel the euphoria when you did.
but where is he?
doubts about his existence,
doubts about his feelings,
doubts about his heart.

Questions linger in the mind.
yet, there's no answer.
if only, he's here.
no amount of tears could bring him here.
no intensity of longing could bring him here.
how could it be?

Tears of guilit and regrets drops,
drop by drop,
it tured into a stream like there's no ending.
battered and bruised his heart was,
he still care.
For you.

But, his heart refused to return.
Miserable must have filled his heart.
his stubborness does not give way.
he will forget eveything,
memories and
finally,
every inch of you.

By then,
you will accept fate
and let the heart,
once yours,
once that beats only for you,
once that ache beacuse of you,
to die away.

♥\\♥
facebook groups.

...Let's Make A Deal..>>>

You forgive me for liking you too much,
And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.

You forgive me for missing you so,
And I'll forgive you for being so cold.

You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart,
And I'll forgive you for not hearing it.

You forgive me for playing your games,
And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.

You forgive me for finding you so attractive,
And I'll forgive you for not noticing.

You forgive me for raising you up so high,
And I'll forgive you for bringing me down so low.

You forgive me for wanting to be with you,
And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.

You forgive me for being so pathetic,
And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.

You forgive me for not being able to let go,
And I'll forgive you for never having latched on.

You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,
And I'll forgive you for crushing them.

Forgiveness brings inner peace.
Do we have a deal?

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♥\\♥
..from --facebook groups..

<..cease of trust..>


so..for a lifetime now..

its you with whom i'll share my one-to-one conversations...

for nw u'll b my mirror to look into my own world sometimes..

..for now on u'll b the one who'll preserve all my memories ..

..holding 'em softly like a newly bloomed flower..

..for now on u'll b the one who'll soak all my tears into ur heart..

..for nw on u'll b the one to hold my intense rage towards the world n thn calming down me for the bettr...

...sometimes sharing some passions...

.sometimes the gloomy mushy imaginations...

..u'll b the one to hold me strong fr a while..n sometimes witnessing my sweetest smiles n glowing eyes.. :)

..sometimes bringing some provoking thots in mind..

..so for now on..u r my best friend....my shadow...my dear diary...

'cause u dun excuricate me upto unbearable limits...

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♥...THERE ARE SOMETHINGS GUYS SHOULD ALWAYS DO FOR GIRLS...♥


>>..jus got this while surfng facebook one day..felt good aftr readng so puttng it here...though it takes lott of effort guys to follow it all.. ;))
n its not only for ur girlfriends..bt for every women in your life..ur mothers, sisters, collegues..n every1.. wish u all "gud luck"..!! :D <<


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so, here are some suggestions to encourage guys to be gentlemen. ;)) -----------

1. Open doors when possible - whether it be to a building or the passenger car door..

2.A man should tolerate the occasional chick flick, musical, opera, or ballet - whatever her preference is - *without* complaining about it! (Because the guy may just like it.)

3. Play one of the songs that would make any woman weep like the little girl she once was (but in a good way). A brief list includes, but certainly isn't limited, to:
"You & Me" by Lifehouse
Anything by Frank Sinatra
Any rendition of "Everything I Do, I Do it for You"
"Collide" by Howie Day
"Out Of My League" by Steven Speaks
And MOST IMPORTANTLY "Question" by the Old 97's ..

4. Talk! The strong & silent bit goes from intriguing to boring quite fast.

5. Find out what her favorite flower is and buy them for her randomly (regardless of the situation you might be in). A simple yet profound truth: a single rose says more than dozens of anything else. (I encourage the women to not allow a guy to "prove himself worthy" through gifts and flowers and such. Trust is a precious thing and it should take a good chunk of time before he gains it back in your heart.)

6. If you miss her, or love her, TELL HER! Even your friends like to hear it every now & again.

7. Remember: the best gifts you can give are usually free of cost.

8. Leave a note (or send a message) just to say "hi".

9. Ask her questions about herself.

10. Dress nice every once & a while. Any girl likes to see her brother/friend/boyfriend/etc. in a well-ironed button-up with some nice scents.

11. Tolerate small children as best you can. Meaning, put up with the things that can get annoying. They're children, after all. Show them love and care, teach them how to become a better man than you. (You were once extremely irritating. Get over the obnoxious kids and enjoy getting down to their level - not "for her", but for the good of yourself and others.)

12. Learn to dance! There is nothing sexier than a man who can dance really well. If God did not bless you with the grace of Fred Astaire, at least put forth the effort, it will be greatly appreciated. Always slow dance (even if it's just like you danced in middle school). Also, men, sing to a lady. Even if you're terrible, suck it up! They love to listen to it and will not care what you sound like. It's the thought that counts on this one.

13. Kiss her on the forehead.

14.When she's sick, stay up with her. If you can cook (which is *always* a plus), make her some soup. If you can't cook, there's Campbell's soup at hand for you.

15. Pretend to throw her in the pool (or fountain/pond). If you really do throw her in, you'd better jump in yourself. **NOTE** There are some women who just hate this apparently, so you had better do two things: 1) Never allow your buddies be a part of it if you're unsure of how she feels about getting thrown in and 2) You had better know how she feels about it!

16. Hold her hand while you talk, drive, or just for the heck of it (it's the small things that win you big points).

17. LOOK IN HER EYES.

18.. Stupid jokes = awkwardly adorable moments.

19. Tickle her, tease her, let her tease you back without getting all bent out of shape about it.

20. Don't call her hot, or pretty, or cute; call her beautiful, because that's what she is. (I don't think cute is that bad, but definitely stay away from "hot" [it's so overused and superficial] and step "pretty" up to beautiful or gorgeous or stunning or captivating or...)

21.Offer her your jacket/sweatshirt. (Note: you may not see that particular item of clothing for a while, if ever again).

22. Don't be too proud to apologize.

23. It's not stalking to watch her sleep if you fall asleep watching a movie. It is stalking to watch her sleep if you're standing outside her window with night vision goggles.

24. When she feels at her worst, tell her she looks her best.

25. If you're trying to get more than friendship out of the relationship, take it slow and never rush her.

26. Just because you're a guy doesn't mean you are completely incapable of calling when you say you will, it just means you are highly incapable of it. There are few acceptable answers to, "Why didn't you call?", & being male is not one of them.

27. Don't check out other girls in front of your female friends/sisters/mother, unless you are sincere when you later ask them if you think she could introduce the two of you for more reasons than you "want to get some".

28. Guys - always offer to pay for the date. No matter how expensive it gets, especially if YOU asked HER on the date. [if she is willing to pay now and again, don't let your "man pride" get in the way of her wanting to give back to you. she should understand money can be tight - especially when you're always buying]

29. Always do everything in your power to keep her as happy as you can. And cheer her up in any way possible. [if she isn't always happy - and i've never met a girl who is - don't be afraid of her and don't be stupid and always, unquestioningly, blame it on PMS. be there WITH her when times are tough and she wants you there.]

30. When walking on the sidewalk, always walk on the outside near traffic. (it's the traffic and puddles and what-not. Whatever it is. It's just a courtesy thing, if it seems necessary.)

31. At least do everything in your power to keep cursing to a minimum while around her. If you can, cut it out period while around her, or cut it out of your vocabulary. Women don't want to hear it, guys don't care about it, adults don't want to hear it, it doesn't impress employers, and you sure won't want your children or someone else's to hear it!

35. Sometimes you have to take the initiative. Don't always wait for her to come to you, because if that's how it always is, you're going to lose her.

36.If a woman says no, let that be her final answer with maybe one question of confirmation after her first answer. Do not pressure or force her in any way after that. Don't make her give in to something she doesn't want to do.

37. Always be honest with her. No woman wants or likes a dishonest man. If you can't be honest with her, she can't trust you, and shows you don't trust her enough to be honest. Trust, honesty and integrity are just as an integral part of a relationship and just as important as love.

38. A man should always genuinely listen to women; no matter how bored or busy the man is. Actively listening to the woman will keep him from pain (and bring the man and woman closer together). This works best, of course, when both the man and the woman actively and equally engage in conversation (this includes listening).

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